Where is Your Seed for Happiness Planted?

I have been going through a harder time with being happy in life right now. I have a great life; better than I deserve. I am spoiled and well taken care of. Yet still on a daily bases I struggle with just being happy. I am the definition of a cynic and I hate it. It makes me so unhappy. I want to make it stop and I am not sure how to do that on my own. So I started to do some more reading on it. I have to challenge every thought that makes me that way. I have to choose to believe different then what my brain immediately tells me to believe.

With that in hand I have taken a step to read how do to 'be' more happy. And it says to figure out what you feel makes you happy and then challenge it when you have found what it is then its just making goals to achieve it and following it through. Without procrastinating and no matter how your brain tells you your not able to do it.

Im not completely sure if everything I think makes me happy actually does. So I am going to figure that out, with anyone who follows me through this journey.

The biggest thing in this life that makes me happy in this world is my family. I love my family from my spouse, furry daughter, to my mom, dad, nephews, and nieces. Seeing them happy makes me happy.

The cynic in me attaches a huge dark cloud of fear and insecurities to this happiness. It reminds me that if I can't provide or at the very least contribute to the family I may quickly loose the family I love so much.

My challenge to this is by reminding myself of everything that the men in my house do to help show support and love on a constant basis.

My Goal is to make one person fill special for everthing they do once a day.... Wish me lusvk.